Through the years we have accumulated a series of experiences. Our tendency is to evaluate and reflect on what we have been through and what we have learned. The self creates a movement and asynchronous pattern between our heart and mind through our inner visions. When the heart and imagination join forces to look back or look forward in time, we deepen our awareness of who we really are. This deepening of who we are is our ‘self’.
It has been said that “until we rest in thee, our hearts will not rest.” This is our journey in life. It’s our journey home. It is the journey into the spatial quality of existence that brought us into this world. It is the journey of what leads us through this life. And, it’s the journey back to where it all started.
One might say the infant and the elderly are more soul than body. As you and I develop our personality and ego, we begin to think that we are someone. The Late Ram Dass calls this “somebody training.” We begin to think that we are real and act on this appearance of being as we move into adulthood. We go back to what Ram Dass called “nobody training” when we mature.
A self is not something static, tied up in a pretty parcel and handed to the child, finished and complete. A self is always becoming? Madeleine L’Engle
We spend a lot of time learning to develop independence from infancy only to lose it again as we die. It’s the journey from innocence to grace. Human expression is a journey of many ups and downs. What keeps us on the track in an often crazy world is our ‘self’, giving us the strength to do the impossible and give us hope when there is none.
Even though it is necessary to embrace all parts of the self with scrutiny and unconditional love, there is something within us that perfects our true nature. Our authentic self knows that we are growing through life and at the same time just going through life. This delicate balance between these two forces of nature allows us to stay on our path. It is the path of knowing who we are through the different experiences and expressions of our life. When there is no direction in life, we learn to trust our self and find direction there. Then you will have a true understanding of self and what it means.